I feel a little bad about neglecting this blog, especially since I'm the one who usually nags everyone to update. =P But I'm on a limited internet connection which has to last until the next of the month, so yeah... Oh, and I'm currently addicted to Potter's World, a RPG forum. It's crazy fun, but I'll explain all about it when I have the time. I'm playing a guy character though, which is challenging and exciting at the same time.

Anyway, went on a farewell trip with my class last week. It was fun, for the most part. Sometimes it was boring too, but I didn't regret going. I had fun in BNS, the amusement park. Laughed a lot and played a lot. Slept with five other girls in the villa. There were only two beds, so we divided into two and slept like sandwiches. My back hurt the first night - I couldn't move at all throughout the night - but we made some changes the second night and I slept better. For whatever reasons, Lidwina had to sleep in the living room, on the couch, though. Sorry, Mak! =P We also had an incident with our bathrooms, but I don't want to explain that. Let's just say it was not pretty.

The second night was a bit more solemn. We sat in circle and talked one by one about what we felt for the last two years. There was one love confession, and two hinted ones. Some girls cried, and we all apologized to each other. Well, not all. I didn't apologize to some people. One because I didn't really want to, but mostly it was because I didn't really walk around to find everyone. I was a little surprised when Erlin approached me especially to apologize, but I guess I wasn't very discreet when I get annoyed by her. I kinda feel bad about that. It's not like I hate her; I like her. She's just a tad annoying at times, but who isn't, right?

Anyway, here's the big announcement: I'm officially an NUS reject. It blows, really, but I sort of cried ahead of time, so when I actually heard the news, I didn't feel so down. My parents sort of laughed it off and said it was fine, but I still feel like this huge disappointment. Bah. Now I'm worried about is coming to Melbourne in October.

Funny thing is, I visited a fortune teller booth in the amusement park. She said financially I'm going to have to pay something I don't really wanna pay for, but it'd result in something much better. I wonder if that was the Melbourne thing. I hope so.

She also said I need to live healthier (Hah!) since I catch seasonal disease easily. She's right. AND she also said I'm going to meet someone who, in a short time, will be my boyfriend. Said he's going to be one of those laidback guys who doesn't fall in love so easily. Cool. I know we're not supposed to really believe in those fortune telling stuff, but I've only been to a fortune teller twice, and both were pretty spot on. So yeah, maybe it's me being superstitious. But then again, you probably can't love Harry Potter and Charmed and not believe in magic, whatever form it takes. =)

Labels: holiday, magic, melbourne, NUS

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...about not studying.

It's not like I don't study at all. I do. Just not for the entire day. I spend the morning and afternoon doing whatever I want, and then fill the night with studying. But I keep seeing my friends talk about studying all the time, everyday, and I feel like I should be doing the same.

Gah. I should stop making excuses and having fun, and start drowning myself in books and revisions.

I guess I'm just fed up with studying, and a little edgy since I still haven't heard from NUS. I don't want to lose hope, but...

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NUS test is over at last. It’s a relief, and I don’t have to worry about it until April. I don’t know how well I did, but I don’t want to dwell on it. It’s done; I did the best that I could, and now I can only hope that my best is enough.

I would like to thank all of my wonderful friends for the well-wishes and the supports. It meant the world to me, and it kept me calm. Honestly, I didn’t panic at all during the tests. I got nervous before I entered the room and got a little scatterbrained during the essays, but I was calm. So thanks, you guys. I love you all. =) If I fail, give me a big hug and tell me it’s going to be fine, okay?

That might be over, but school is still as demanding as ever. I had two tests this morning, both of which I probably failed since I didn’t study at all yesterday. I got home at midnight and immediately hit the bed. I would’ve skipped school, but I didn’t want to have to take the tests alone, and Mum said it was okay if I failed this time. =P We’re going to perform the play and aerobic next week. Just thinking about all of the work we have to do exhausts me. Hopefully it won’t be as difficult as it seems to be.

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I'm leaving for Jakarta in less than three hours. A little scared, but also strangely calm. Keep telling myself it's going to work out, but I keep picturing me sitting there, in the test room, frozen, while my heart races away. God, I hope that doesn't happen.

Finished packing half an hour again, but I'm going to check again. I tend to forget things when I'm all worried and nervous about something.

Pray for me?

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Days pass more quickly when you're expecting something scary to happen.

THREE MORE DAYS!!!

I'm trying very hard not to freak and focus on studying, but the more I think about it, the closer I am to screaming. But there's no time for a nervous breakdown right now. I can have one after the test is over, but at the moment I should put all of my energy into studying. Which might explain why I didn't do any better at Monday's Chem test than the previous. =/I've given up on the fun things, like writing and watching TV (though I make an exception for Idol. It's Hollywood week! And it's only an hour, right? If it's two, I swear I'll only watch the first hour).

Anyway, gotta get back to studying. =/ Wish me luck!

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I would love to get up in the morning, all bright and happy to start a new day, instead of curling up even more, feeling around for the snooze button. There's hardly anything to look forward to these days. All I could think of when I get up is, "What am I going to study today? Math, most likely. What's on TV today? Probably can't watch it. Gah." But still, I get up, find something good about the day, and move on with the routine. Maybe I just need to do something different, special, for myself. Get myself out of this rut.

I've taken up the challenge to read 50 books this year. So far I've read:

1. Maximum Ride: School's Out Forever - James Patterson
2. The Tales of Beedle the Bard - J.K Rowling
3. Confession of a Shopaholic - Sophie Kinsella (The book I read had Isla Fisher on the cover though)
   
4. Perfect Stranger - ... (I forgot who wrote this, but it's pretty good)

I've stopped reading novels routinely since eleventh grade. Maybe I should start again, that'll cheer me up a bit.

Yes, I'm a bookworm. If that isn't obvious already. =P

Labels: assignment, books, challenges, NUS, school

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the mess that is my desk

Seriously, it isn't that boring. Geography is, though. And Economy isn't so bad, but I do hate having to study it all over again. =/

Labels: history, NUS, school

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