So... Been very busy. Not busy as in "oh God, I have absolutely no time to relax" busy, but life has been very eventful.








Also went out with my sis to Sutos. Ate at Frankfurter Hotdog, which is quickly becoming one of my favorite eating spots. I love the sausages. =D My sister has all the pics.


Tuesday: Hung out with Michelle and Anita at GM. FUN!

Wednesday: Hung out again, but this time at Sutos. Ate Frankfurter again, because I succesfully lured them into it. *insert evil laugh here* And then Michelle had to leave to get her teeth pulled out (by a dentist of course), so Anita and I talked while eating ice cream at Gelare. Good ice cream, even better talk. Yet to ask the pictures from Michelle.

Today: I'm supposed to go to Alfalink to take care of stuffs, but I have to wait because the AC is going to be repaired today and the people who have to repair has yet to come. Gahh.

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I am sooo tired. And this is only the first day of the finals. *sighs* That is why I'm here, despite my internet diet. I need to relax, even if it's only for fifteen minutes.

Well, at least today turned out better than I expected. Indonesian went well; I made some silly mistakes, but I think it could get an 80 minimum. =p Got a little stressed during Biology. The first time I went through all 40 questions, I could only answer 10. I tried it again, thinking "At least let me answer half of this." And it got better. Though I kept counting how many questions I possibly got wrong even after I finished it. I estimated around 16. =/

Thania was all frustrated too. I could tell by the way she kept tossing her eraser around. :P She was near tears when we got out of the class. (Than, if you're reading this, you will not fail!) I was feeling all frustrated too, but we and Stella and Elien started comparing answers and it seemed that I did better than I thought. Yay. ^_^

It's English tomorrow. I'm going to study right after this so I can have some time for Math, which is on Wednesday and one of my three most dreaded subjects. =/ Wish me luck!

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I finally picked a new template. This was actually my last option. The first one didn't work and the second looked too empty, though I did love the header. But I like this one too. Chasing Cars is a great song. ^_^ What do you think? Of the template, not the song. =p


This might be my last post on this blog until next week as the internet diet thing takes place. I'm going to stick to it like a glue. It might give me a chance to write in between studying too. After the finals, I'll finish betaing chapters, my (very, very long) review thread, and updating! Oh, and then I'll worry about uni. Though I'm still worrying now. =/ I might have a girl's night out with my friends too, but we haven't talked about it much. I haven't talked to them much, in fact, thanks to different classes and the craziness that is finals.

Anyway, there's a new subforum in SAYS' Fic Clique which discusses books. I'm one of the three mods responsible for it, and I'm having a blast. ^_^ This month we're discussing The Chronicles of Narnia. Come over and join the discussion!

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One week left to the national exams! I'm starting to get really worried. =/ Definitely gonna go on an internet and TV diet starting Thursday. =p

Today's tests went alright. At least, I'm confident with Indonesian. Math... not so much. I was feeling good while doing it. It wasn't as bad as the last tryout, at least. But then I compared my answers with my friends and didn't feel as good anymore. *sighs*

Currently listening to a lot of Idol's songs. My top 5 is Adam, Danny, Allison, Kris, and Anoop. Yes, Anoop hasn't been very consistent. But when he's good, he's good. ^_^

Also loving Miley Cyrus' The Climb. It's the perfect song for what I'm going through right now.

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

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School starts tomorrow.

Huh.

Actually studied on the train ride yesterday, though it might not be a good idea to study with your headset on and a screaming kid across the aisle. Still, I got some studying done, so it was better than nothing.

Grandma is driving me crazy!!! This is one of the reasons why I don't look forward to being back here, and why I want to graduate and move across the ocean as soon as possible. I'm so sick of being bossed around and treated like a kid. Why can't I have those grandmas who cook brownies and remember how old you actually are and don't make snide, annoying comments while you're watching your favorite shows (When AI is on and she sees Randy, she'll go, "Is that an earring? Tsk." Bla bla bla bla. This happens almost everytime AI is on.). Not to be disrespectful, but could you just let me enjoy the show?

I try to be nice most of the time, but when you're already in a bad mood, it's hard to bite your tongue and not say something snarky.

I'd rant more, but I don't think that would be a good idea, so moving on...

I'm officially an artist. Well, not really. I made a gallery in this site and got some feedback. Will work more on it after the national exams are over. Wanna see it? Don't really know if you can without being a member, but here's the link anyway: Dancing in the Storm

See you guys in school tomorrow!

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...about not studying.

It's not like I don't study at all. I do. Just not for the entire day. I spend the morning and afternoon doing whatever I want, and then fill the night with studying. But I keep seeing my friends talk about studying all the time, everyday, and I feel like I should be doing the same.

Gah. I should stop making excuses and having fun, and start drowning myself in books and revisions.

I guess I'm just fed up with studying, and a little edgy since I still haven't heard from NUS. I don't want to lose hope, but...

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March began with two of my best friends getting a boyfriend. It was all wonderful, and pretty funny, since all four of my friends got together with their boyfriends in March. We dubbed it our month of love.

And then March ends with another two of my best friends breaking up with their boyfriends. On the same day.

But that is not my story to tell. *channeling Aslan*

Here’s my story: I feel like there are these thin fracture lines on me and at any moment I could just crack into a million little pieces. Everything I have learnt in the past three years just swam around in my head and I can’t seem to fish out the necessary information when I need them. It really sucks because I do need to get at least 75 on it, and I can’t imagine not graduating. I’d rather die.

*sighs* There goes my monster again. One of these days I might just name her, like Beyonce and Sasha Fierce.

Moving on to a lighter subject, my parents bought me a watch yesterday. It’s a cute piece from Swatch, silver with a streak of pink and three little butterflies dangling from the band. They said it would last longer than my old watches – it should; it was a lot more expensive – and I could bring it when I start college.

(I was going to type ‘when I move to Singapore’ and thought better of it. Better not to count my eggs before they hatch.)

I’ve already got myself a potential roommate if I move to Singapore. Amanda already secured a scholarship from NAFA, and it’s a good idea to start a new life with a friend around, so yeah. She’s going to be my roommate. Of course, there’s the matter of picking an apartment that would suit us both, but that will have to wait until I hear from NUS. I keep reminding myself that there’s a big possibility they would say no, and I don’t want to watch my plans fall apart, so I try not to get too excited about it right now.

Still, The Secret said it’s a good idea to keep picturing what you want and being grateful for it as if you already had it, so I keep picturing myself living in Singapore. It worked once, it could work again.

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When you look back on times we had
I hope you smile
And know that through the good and through the bad
I was on your side when nobody could hold us down
We claimed the brightest star
And we, we came so far
And no they won't forget

 

Three years seem to pass in a blink of an eye. All of the sudden it’s the last day of high school. We’ve still got exams before we get to graduations, but this was the last day I study in this class, in this school. My days as a high school kid is numbered, and I’m scared. I’m scared to think about whether or not I’ll get into NUS, whether or not these friends I’ve made are still going to be around when I’m gone, whether or not I’ll be able to survive ‘the real world’. As if this isn’t real.

I’m still praying that I get into NUS. I know my chances are slim, and there are people out there who are way way smarter than me, but I owe this to my parents, to myself. I’ve studied harder than I ever have, my parents have worked so hard every day and every night, and I don’t want to let anyone of us down. All these plans we’ve made, I want to live them.

Anyway, this wasn’t a bad last day. It was full of laughter, for one. Everyone was taking pictures with just about everyone; I don’t think anyone was that interested in the lessons today. :P *will post pics when I have more time* Some kids (coughstellacough) got a bit emotional when the teachers won’t stop reminding us that this was the last day they will be teaching us, and some kept regretting that we have to leave high school soon.

Me? I still don’t feel like this is goodbye. Maybe when they hand the diploma or when I stand in the airport, saying goodbye, that I would start getting emotional.

I mean, I’m a crier; I would tear up at sad movies, when Oprah is having a particularly heartfelt scene and I’m feeling all gooey, when I get a horrible grades…. Hell, I even tear up when I watch the first half of HSM 3. But I didn’t shed a single tear when I said goodbye to Feli, not even when everyone else was bawling their eyes out. It wasn’t that I wasn’t upset about it, I guess it’s more that I’ve prepared for the goodbyes long before we actually say it, so long in fact that I didn’t feel the need to cry anymore when it actually happened. Maybe it’s going to be the same when I graduate.

I don’t know.

The highlights of my high school years: making it into the science class (though it turns out to be much harder than I suspected), getting a spot in the writer’s workshop and then getting my short stories published, my seventeenth birthday, making seventeenth birthday surprises and presents for Michelle, Anita, Feli, and Stella, the first half of eleventh grade – when ignorance was total bliss, choosing colleges and discussing majors with my friends – a discussion that felt like it would never end, studying for the university entrance test – not the actual studying, but the constant support from my wonderful friends, and the day my parents gave their full blessing for my choice of major and gaining their confidence in my ability to write.

There are thousands more, little moments and jokes that would always make me smile, but these are my favourites. Hopefully there are more of those where I’m going.

Whenever you remember times gone by
Remember how we held our heads so high
When all this world was there for us
And we believe that we could touch the sky
Whenever you remember, I'll be there
Remember how we reached that dream together
Whenever you remember

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To my awesome friends, thank you so much for the present! I was so not expecting it, and I really love it. So thank you again, I’m definitely going to use them. *hugs*

That was definitely the highlight of the day, since it was fairly ordinary. But it was a good day though, despite the fact that the tryout marks are announced and mine are totally pathetic. Still, today is a good day so far.

I really need to get a better grade, or I might just kiss my Trinity Fast Track year goodbye. So I proposed a studying session/challenge to Amanda, Stella, and Margareth. Each day we’re going to pick a subject and a certain number of questions to be answered. The next day we’re going to compare the result, and whoever fails to reach the goal will have to treat us with that crunchy mushroom snack in the cafeteria. We’re doing Physics today, which is one of my better subjects, I think, but it’s still a struggle.

This is going to be fun. And I’m not being sarcastic. Not really.

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I’m posting this from Windows Live Writer, downloaded yesterday. Hopefully this works. ^_^

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Mickey

I got him by coincidence. Last Sunday, we were going to take my sister to her piano exam when suddenly this little dog bolted into our house, crawled under the car, and refused to budge. It took us almost an hour to persuade him to come out. We suspect he was dognapped, because there was this suspicious-looking guy in front of the house, claiming Mickey (as we decided to call him) was his. But when we told him to call the dog, he refused and left. I think he was the dognapper.

Either way, Mickey's living in our house now. He's still a bit jumpy, but he likes to snuggle up to me now. Which is so cute and adorable, but I end up smelling like him. :P My aunt makes it clear that he's mine and my sister's; we're the one responsible for him. It's a tad harder than I thought, but it's kinda fun. ^_^

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These past few days had been hell for me. Heck, it had been hell for everyone. The preparation for the play demanded much more time and energy than I thought and, more than once, I wanted nothing more than to bite someone's head off or crawl under my cover and not wake up. I was this close to be the bitch who would not hesitate tell her sick friend to suck it up and come to practice no matter what. I was tense, short-tempered, panicky, and probably hated (and was hated by) some of my own teammates.

In short, the monster reared its ugly head.

But it's all over. We performed this morning; had to wait for almost an hour for the sound guy to arrive (I had no idea if he ever arrived or not, but I still think we paid them for nothing), Margareth had several accidents, and the music was all wrong toward the end (I should've made sure Stella knew her cue), but it turned out pretty okay. Whatever. All that matters is that it's all over now.

YAY!!

On a lighter note, I'm eighteen now. Doesn't feel that different than being seventeen, but we'll see. ;) I had an okay birthday. Mum cooked the whole day, and we had to go shopping for the ingredients which was pretty fun. Dad was in a good mood the whole weekend too, which is always a good thing, and he cooked too. And I got to eat ice cream both times we went out. I'm happily stuffed.

I didn't get any gifts, but it's alright. I can't think of anything I want that you could buy here (though I do have a wish list up on Facebook, but most of them are frivolous things), and my friends are way too busy to put together something special, so I totally understand. =) Mum said she'd buy me a pair of real earrings, unlike the plastic ones I currently own, and maybe some of the things I might need when I actually leave for uni, wherever that may be.

Which reminded me that this might be my last birthday here. *sighs*

Oh well, at least it was a good one.

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Had to go home from school early yesterday because of a bad stomachache, and then got a fever in the evening. Still sort of feverish this morning, so I'm skipping school today. I should be giving my speech right now, and it's probably a bad idea to stay home since I'd be the last one doing the speech, but I don't think it's a good idea to go with my head still all fuzzy like this.

At least I get to rest. I haven't fully rested since I got home from Jakarta. That's probably why I got sick: I'm exhausted and stressed. In fact, I couldn't sleep yesterday, worrying about the speech, Math test, the play... My brain just wouldn't rest until my mom told me it's okay if I want to stay home today. Then I slept like a rock.

Speaking of which, I should enjoy my freedom while it lasts. That is, if you can call being constantly called and nagged by your grandma freedom. Why do I have to be the nice kid - the one she's not afraid of bothering - eh?

Gonna go lock myself in my room so my grandmother can't bother me anymore. Gah.

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NUS test is over at last. It’s a relief, and I don’t have to worry about it until April. I don’t know how well I did, but I don’t want to dwell on it. It’s done; I did the best that I could, and now I can only hope that my best is enough.

I would like to thank all of my wonderful friends for the well-wishes and the supports. It meant the world to me, and it kept me calm. Honestly, I didn’t panic at all during the tests. I got nervous before I entered the room and got a little scatterbrained during the essays, but I was calm. So thanks, you guys. I love you all. =) If I fail, give me a big hug and tell me it’s going to be fine, okay?

That might be over, but school is still as demanding as ever. I had two tests this morning, both of which I probably failed since I didn’t study at all yesterday. I got home at midnight and immediately hit the bed. I would’ve skipped school, but I didn’t want to have to take the tests alone, and Mum said it was okay if I failed this time. =P We’re going to perform the play and aerobic next week. Just thinking about all of the work we have to do exhausts me. Hopefully it won’t be as difficult as it seems to be.

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Days pass more quickly when you're expecting something scary to happen.

THREE MORE DAYS!!!

I'm trying very hard not to freak and focus on studying, but the more I think about it, the closer I am to screaming. But there's no time for a nervous breakdown right now. I can have one after the test is over, but at the moment I should put all of my energy into studying. Which might explain why I didn't do any better at Monday's Chem test than the previous. =/I've given up on the fun things, like writing and watching TV (though I make an exception for Idol. It's Hollywood week! And it's only an hour, right? If it's two, I swear I'll only watch the first hour).

Anyway, gotta get back to studying. =/ Wish me luck!

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Gaby and me

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I would love to get up in the morning, all bright and happy to start a new day, instead of curling up even more, feeling around for the snooze button. There's hardly anything to look forward to these days. All I could think of when I get up is, "What am I going to study today? Math, most likely. What's on TV today? Probably can't watch it. Gah." But still, I get up, find something good about the day, and move on with the routine. Maybe I just need to do something different, special, for myself. Get myself out of this rut.

I've taken up the challenge to read 50 books this year. So far I've read:

1. Maximum Ride: School's Out Forever - James Patterson
2. The Tales of Beedle the Bard - J.K Rowling
3. Confession of a Shopaholic - Sophie Kinsella (The book I read had Isla Fisher on the cover though)
   
4. Perfect Stranger - ... (I forgot who wrote this, but it's pretty good)

I've stopped reading novels routinely since eleventh grade. Maybe I should start again, that'll cheer me up a bit.

Yes, I'm a bookworm. If that isn't obvious already. =P

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This week feels like it would never end. Three exams in a row, the play getting graded tomorrow, homework, NUS… The list goes on. It seems like we’re not going to catch a break until Sunday and Monday, which is the Lunar New Year. Don’t think I’ll get loads of money this year, but hey, school’s out, so I’m not complaining.

Anyway, today is Michelle’s eighteenth birthday. The girls and I gave her the first present we bought together (practically raced to the bakery after school to be able to give it to her in time). Anita is planning on her own gift, and Mag, Stella, and I are planning some things too. One of them is going to take some time, but I’m sure I can finish it before we graduate. ^_^

Gah, I still need to work on my speech for the Indonesian exam. My topic is ‘Suicide among Teenagers’, but I’m thinking of changing it into ‘Depression’. Both are rather dark, but there’s a lot to talk about. I just need to do a bit of research first.

So looking forward to Sunday.

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the mess that is my desk

Seriously, it isn't that boring. Geography is, though. And Economy isn't so bad, but I do hate having to study it all over again. =/

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