Well, the holiday’s over, so now I’m back home. It’s a little strange, saying I’m back home. When the holiday starts and I go to my parents’ house, it’s also ‘back home’ for me. My friend once pointed this out to me, but I can’t remember who. =P

Back in the city also means back to school. It’s nice, seeing everyone again. No one’s changed too drastically; a haircut here and there, some new rumours, but nothing too drastic. What not nice is getting up at five thirty in the morning and actually sitting through the lessons. And don’t forget that annoying classmate. Some people should have ‘I will learn to shut up’ or ‘I will try to be less self-centered this year’ on their resolution.

This semester already looks to be one of those semesters that just seem to fly by. Big exams lie ahead, including the entrance examination for NTU, which makes me dread my birthday more and more each day. And there are the practical exams, which is possibly more alarming than the written one. I just wish I didn’t have to work with that said annoying classmate. *sighs* I pride myself in being a pretty patient person, but Mother Teresa is probably the only person who would be able to tolerate him smilingly.

Maybe I should start channeling Mother Teresa for now. I won’t have to deal with him again in a couple of months anyway (here’s hoping I won’t ever see him in college). I do have more important matters in mind. Like the fact that I only have four months left in high school, and that though I know things might change and people grow apart, I still wish that, when I get married, my best friends would be there to tease me, that my bridesmaid may be the girl I know since I was nine. Or the fact that once I set out into the ‘real’ world, I might not be able to live as a writer and have to find a ‘real’ job.

So much for positive thinking.

Labels: friends, home, reflection, school

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So, 2009 is coming in just TWO hours for me, and I can’t help but feel a bit reflective.

This year, I:
- Had one of the best birthdays of my life.
- Said goodbye to two important parts of my life: my best friend and my dog.
- Prepared for the life-changing moment that is college application.
- Had one short-story published.
- Lost a writing competition and entered another one.
- Realized that first impressions are hardly ever right, and found good friends in those I’ve overlooked before.
- Wrote a pairing I never thought I would write in HPFF and actually did it well.
- Discovered that, to some, boyfriends are more important than best friends. Oh well.
- Have yet to fall in love again. Crushes, yes. Love, no.
- Had my first slumber party, one that was filled with tears and memories.
- Tittered at the edge of depression, but got out in the nick of time.
- Began to really, really, contemplate and decide what I want for my future.
- Learned that, whatever waits at the end of the road, I have to want to get there.
- Became more patient with my grandma. I don’t lose my temper with her as much now.

In short, 2008 has been one of the most exciting, chaotic, and insane years of my life. I survived it all, and I have grown. I like to think I’m a better person than I was, but it’s still going to be a while until I’m even half the person I want to be. =P

I haven’t written my list of resolutions yet. I have the rough draft in my head, but I’m still trying to make it more do-able. Otherwise it would be just like any other year, and I don’t want that. 2009 will be different!

Labels: 2008, reflection, thoughts

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